What's The Point?

So my Ex asked weeks ago to take the kids on a Cruise to Alaska. In her normal sign this and get it notarized. I told her no. I said I wouldn’t be willing to sign the release or allow the children to go on the cruise unless she agreed to a new therapist and found a pediatrician between us. She flat out told me no. She would not. Ok. So in the past week I received the three nicest e-mails from her I have had in a long time. Gee…What could that portend? Sure enough — today I receive a call from my son! It’s me Max we are in Seattle we are going on a ship! Oh? That’ll be fun won’t it! Yup, un-huh. So what are you doing? Nothing much, just hanging out. Oh okay, well talk to you later! Can’t be upset with my kids can I? Nope.
So to summarize:
1. Lied on the stand about her income and her financial situations.
2. Has consistently put my children in the middle to the point of making everything a fight.
3. Told my daughter about private conversations between adults, including the custody evaluator.
4. Choose the school with no input and against my reasonable concerns.
5. Continues to slander me in her submissions to the court.
So far what have I successfully achieved? Another $15k in debt! Nice! Well I went to my therapist the other day. She said something that I found completely abhorrent: The abuse is survivable. Yup — guess it is…. Neat… I wonder with all of the times my children have come to my crying and scared if instead of comforting them I smiled and said hey! It’s not that bad! You are still breathing!
I am finished. I have received ZERO support from the civil courts, all the parenting classed I took and followed didn’t do anything she used them as a how to alienate better. I am fascinated by it — I am slowly coming to accept it. That’s the best I can do.